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Name: Jac
Gender: Male
Interests: Sweets... I love sweets! >_<
Expertise: Give me a bit of mystery, will ya?
Occupation: Artist
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6/26/2006
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| How sad are we.
How friggin' sad are we. We hurt ourselves and others like us. We ridicule them and belittle ourselves. We turn the entire world into a goddamn cesspool of radioactive crap. And for those of us who actually don't do anything--- that actually care about this godforsaken world of "humanitarians"--- have to sludge through the dump just to get to the shore that doesn't exist. So for all friggin' eternity, we're trenching around in the fecal matter of our race.
We make weapons that we say we'll never use then go and blow up half the goddamn world--- ALL THE WAY UP TO HEAVEN. JUST to be closer to him. That's right, folks!! I'm talking about him. Ohoho, that wonderful son of a gun just sitting up there on his cloud of god-f**cking SADISM!!!
And we're his little toys. The "little" world he's created. We're under his big ass THUMB and bend to every one of his idiotic whims!!! Do we rebel?! Hell, no. Oho, not us. Why? Because we're all too incompetent and too goddamn SELFISH!! Let's face it! WE SUCK!!
We're stuck on this water-logged planet under a NAMELESS God and his mistress, Fate!! They've strung us up. They're those puppeteers and we're just along for the ride. Those thoughts we think aren't ours. Their concoctions of Him and his whore. The things we do aren't really of our own choice. It's HIS whim and Fate's PMS!!! Those that we've loved aren't even our own. They are just the manifestations of His sadism to entertain Her.
How can we possibly do ANYTHING under such conditions? It's no wonder we all decide to take a shine to masochism. Because we are STUPID. Evolution? HA. Bullshit. We are cavemen. It is for His amusement. We're not going anywhere. We're stuck in a cage with clipped wings while a hot iron is searing our asses to sing for Him.
God? God? How is it possible that a three-letter word can have such influence over the entire world? We outnumber Him DUMBASSES. We're the f**king majority!!! We're here to kick his sick ass outta Heaven but we're still stuck in Limbo, aren't we? In this place where we steal from another, covet the possessions of others, and kill each other on reflex. You know why? Because that oh-so HEAVENLY sadist gave us instinct. God. F**king. INSTINCT.
So HERE we are. Under Him. With this extraordinary gift of rational thinking. And now He, I swear, for his own amusement--- his personal COSMIC gag reel--- just to SEE WHAT MAN WILL DO--- sets the rules in opposition. HA. We're ANIMALS. We're here for no other purpose than to wipe ourselves out!!
Haha!! We're stuck here!! In a LIVING HELL.
Worship that? Never.
And here I am. Still under His thumb. Only he's got me bound around the wrists and ankles. I'm His experiment, his goddamn guinea pig. And He knows it. Oho... he knows it. Not only that, he's got his bitch for hire, FATE! Well, HELLO, Fate.
By the by, thanks SO much for stringing me up here. I'd hate to be down there with the rest of 'em. With those brainless retards. With their ignorant bliss and stupid memories. Ever heard of balance? All that so-called happiness will only be countered by the garbage of you and your race. Me and my race. Ha. You've completely polluted yourselves. Not to mention your soulmates. Those OH-SO-WONDERFUL soulmates. Yeah, they're just TOO wonderful, so much so that you may never get to meet them in your LIFETIME.
Ohoho!! Now we're really moving, aren't we?
While God and Fate are laughing their authoritarian asses off, you're stuck with this guilt of life. Lemme tell you something, you "faithful, young souls." Guilt is like a bag of f**king bricks. And you're living this miserable life under Him, draggin this around as a ball and chain. Yeah, you're STUCK with it. And what for? God? Is that it? God? That's just RICH.
There aren't any humanists on this worthless planet is there? NONE. HA. Well, THAT'S where you're wrong. Here I am.
Me.
Stuck here with my nose in the ground and tied up like cattle, just watching him do this entire thing for only He--- HAHAHA!! ONLY HE--- knows how long!!! Well, la-di-frickin-DAH. My, my, what a show!! And what does he do? He creates me and flings me into this world. Your sick world. He has forced me to live here amongst you. He is so determined to make me suffer. He doesn't care!!! If anything, He's ENJOYING it!!!
IT'S THE BIGGEST FRIGGIN' GOOF OF ALL TIME!!!
Now, am I giving myself too much credit? Bullshit.
See, you're not really stupid. Just ignorant, close-minded, and hella pious. Just hella pious. But your inner desires aren't invisible. I mean, look at you. You're practically spouting them, flooding Him, with them. Those prayers. You just LOVE to pray, don't you? God, please give me strength! Oh Lord, please help my family!!! Heavenly Father, please let me live a life of happiness!!! HA.
I know you.
I know everything about you.
I know what you want. And what you need. But do you know it? Of course not. As I've said, you're ignorant, close-minded, and so devoted to that ethereal SADIST.
I'm a humanist. Maybe the last humanist. I've nurtured every sensation Man has been inspired to HAVE! I've done nothing but care. I've cared about everything he's ever wished for and I've never judged him.
Why? Why?
Because I've never rejected him. In spite of all his imperfections, I'm a fan of Man!! I won't be like Him. I'm no judge.
I am nothing like you.
If anything, I'm above you. So how does it feel, God? To have your own monstrous creation supercede your very being?!! I can undo whatever you do and do whatever you won't. I am your opposite in every way. I will make sure that Man's desires are fulfilled, whatever sin that may be!!!
You have no power over me.
Ha... you see it now, don't you? The mistake you've made? Was it when you decided to cast me down to Earth? To cut your ties with me so that I would live amongst your lowly life-forms? When you gave me the power to walk like the living dead? Bathed in nonexistence.
No. Think back a little farther.
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You got it? HA!!! As to be expected from AlMIGHTY God, you've figured it out!!!
Yes. The day that you created me.
Your personal apocalypse.
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| Okaa-san...
Those families that walk down the street. I can't help but stare at them. How can they be so happy? What possible pleasures could life offer them? If anything, they're meager and ephemeral. They never last long. Why bother? Morons.
Do you know me?
It makes me sick to see those ignorant people. One of the things I can't stand. They go prancing around, laughing and smiling like it's some friggin' thing to be proud of. There's nothing to be happy about, you little pricks. And you, parents. Why the hell do you keep lying to them, huh? They're kids. Yeah, they're stupid as hell but so what? Doesn't give you the damn right to keep anything from them.
Or have you forgotten again?
How dare you. How dare you think you have any right to happiness! I'm not entitled to it so why should you be? You think you're so good, is that it? And I'm not?! I'm not happy because I'm not worthy of it? Where do you get off telling me anything when you know nothing?!
I'm your son... part of you.
Don't start preaching your so-called morals or those useless words of consolation. Ha. Ha. You think your words have so much meaning? Don't flatter yourself. You think you have any control over me? You can't even begin to fathom what I am.
Remember? Ne? Okaa-san?
I am beyond your understanding and that just pisses you off doesn't it? Isn't it great to be a conformed idiot?! Isn't it just peachy?! You just love it don't you?! You know what they say! Ignorance is goddamn bliss, right?!!
Say yes... Even if you don't mean it.
Huh...
And I'll still smile. For you.
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No wonder you're so happy.
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| I'm falling into a dream...
Strings connect us all through the red links around our fingers. It binds us to who we are, those we meet, and our destiny. Every meeting has significance, nothing is unimportant.
Floating without ties.
Too many bonds can choke a person who only finds comfort in Death. But when they leave, their strings still remain here. Where we are.
Holding your hand.
When they pass over the bridge to paradise, their connection with themselves is forever lost. Untraceable. Gone.
Nostalgia floods this field of dreams.
I feel almost lucky to have no strings attached. Fate is a game to me and its threats merely childsplay. I'm no puppet of a demon and this freedom is mine.
I'm scared of waking up.
But... is it so terrible to be bound? To be connected with another person? To play along with Fate's tapestry and the play that is your destiny?
In this paradise, I would sleep for eternity...
I'm sure it is. It's terrible. Despicable. I don't want it. I don't want anything. I have everything I will ever want. There is nothing you have that I desire. I'm not tied down to anything. I pity you. All of you.
And yet...
This dream will be my world and you, my sanctuary.
I'm so alone.
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